Moving On. Once Again.

Time to move on once again.

This Friday will be my last day at this company.

The owner/CEO didn't want to regularize me, because according to him, he "wasn't able to feel me".

I know it's his decision since he owns this company, and he has been running it for 15 years, but at least I can explain my side here in my own blog, where no one else can read it.

For the past 5 months that I have been working here, there was not a single training nor event that I dropped. I am proud to say that for the budgetting, I have even saved the company a lot of money while not having to compromise quality.

I have the HR Manager as my immediate supervisor. I reach out to her if (and only if) I cannot solve issues on my end. I never reach out straight to our CEO. It's called chain of command. 

Apparently, he wanted me to reach out to him so he can "feel" me.

I was never informed of that when I started, and I believe it is unethical and unprofessional - you know, bypassing your own supervisor to go straight to the top. Besides, my supervisor has been very supportive.

Oh well, what's done is done.

Or in my case, what's not done is not done.

Time to look for those open windows as this door will be closed to me in 4 days.

Time to move on once again.

Day 1 - Your Birthday Wish

I wish that my daughter will grow up to be 

a good citizen of humanity. 

Day 2 - A Pic of Yourself before You turn 35

Day 3 - Two Words you've always wanted to say to your Younger Self

Day 4 - Provide pictures of 5 Celebrity Crushes

I can't think of 5 since I've only had 2 all-time Celebrity Crushes. :)

Day 5 - Post a Screenshot of Your Desktop

Day 6 - Your views on Drugs and Alcohol

Ever since I was young, I've always had 4 things that I will never ever do in my life.

I will never take drugs.

I will never drink alcohol.

I will never smoke.

I will never wear contact lens.

I'm turning 35 in a few days, and nothing has changed.

Day 7 - Something You're Currently Worried About

I am currently worried about not being able to find a job before Christmas.

Last October 21, my boss informed me that the CEO wants to end my contract and is not interested in regularizing me.

It is very painful especially that I've sacrificed a lot for this job.

My last day of work will be on November 20, that's a week after my birthday.

Bittersweet.

I don't want to treat anyone on my birthday only because I will have to save as much money as I can since I don't have a new job that I will be starting anytime soon.

I am worried about not finding a job soon, because the world will not stop when I'm already jobless.

Day 8 - Your Fears

I have been through Hell and back in my life, that I don't scare easily anymore.

Having said that, my fears are all about my daughter.

I am afraid that my daughter will grow up not following what I've been teaching her.

I am afraid that my daughter will be taken away from me before I will be taken away from her.

I am afraid that I will not be able to protect my daughter anymore.

I am afraid that I will fail my daughter.

I am afraid that I will no longer be the hero in my daughter's eyes.

Day 9 - A Quote You Try to Live By

Day 10 - Put your iPod on shuffle and List the First Ten Songs

I haven't updated my playlist for a long time, but then again, I am not updated with the latest songs so.. yeah.


1. All of Me - Boyce Avenue

2. Defying Gravity - Idina Menzel

3. In Your Eyes - Rachelle Ann Go

4. Seasons of Love - Instrumental

5. The Lord is My Strength - Michael Lapid, SDB

6. The Way You Look Tonight - Martin Nievera

7. Basang Basa sa Ulan - Aegis

8. Music from Above - Kindred Hearts Cast

9. Bridge Over Troubled Waters - Simon and Garfunkel

10. With a Smile - Eraserheads


There you go.

A mix of everything.

Day 11 - Something That You Miss

I miss musical theatre.

It has been a while since I've been involved in a full musical, and I so miss it.

Theatre has been my life for 22 years, so it has become almost second nature to me.

I miss directing.

I miss acting.

I miss singing.

I miss doing all three at the same time.

*sigh*

Day 12 - Twelve RANDOM Facts About Yourself

I changed the word "Interesting" to "RANDOM" just because..

Anyway..

1. I love theatre.

2. 2015 is my 22nd year in theatre.

3. My greatest influence in singing is Martin Nievera.

4. My greatest influence in musical theatre is Colm Wilkinson.

5. I used to be a dancer before I became a singer.

6. I am very transparent.

7. I am 50-50 with singing contests. I only joined twice.

8. It's easier for me to perform in front of a thousand people, than to talk in front of 10 or less.

9. I am a loner.

10. I have a 12-year old daughter who is my everything.

11. My dream role is The Beast in Beauty and the Beast the Musical.

12. I have very low self-esteem.