Visting Our Barkada's Grave

Last July, one of my closest friends since high school passed away due to complications from COVID. He was buried the next day with us watching through Zoom. It was very sad and very damn painful for us.

Every end of the year, our high school barkada always meet up for our annual catch-up. This year, since Charles will no longer be with us in our catch-up, we made sure to visit him for the first time at his final (physical) resting place. His wife and 2 kids were our guide. It was bittersweet for all of us.

Rest in peace, Charles.

We will never forget you.

Ever.

Thinking Out Loud - December 30, 2020

As a new year approaches, let us reflect on the habits and attitudes that are toxic for us and for everyone around us, and are better off left in the past. One is always looking at the negative side of things. For example, instead of punishing your child for having 20 mistakes in the test, why don't you focus instead on the 80 correct answers? Instead of being envious with someone because he has something you don't have, why don't you focus instead on what you have that he doesn't?

We as human beings have the tendency to almost always focus on the negative. Let's be aware of that, and difficult as it may sound, let's try our best to change that. Not for others, but for ourselves. Often times we get sick not because of what we eat, but because of what is eating us. We grumble about having too much work or having low pays while others don’t even have. We complain about waking up early while others don’t even have a reason to live. We grouse about gaining weight while others don’t even have food on their tables. Everyday, the Lord fills our lives with so much goodness. All we need to do is open our eyes and give thanks for each of them.

Stay positive in life, and negative with negativity.

Breaking Down

From college until I was in my late 20s, I would only sleep for a couple of hours a day because I thought that sleep was a waste of time. I'd rather do things to make myself productive. My mantra was, "I'll have plenty of time to sleep when I'm dead".

From my early 30s to the present (I just turned 40), my body has been asking for the rest and recharge that I deprived it of for many years.

Since the quarantines started in our city in March 2020, I have been doing most chores at home including the heavy ones because my father is already getting older and weaker. That took a toll on my body more.

Now a lot of my body parts don't feel right, and I have this feeling that my body is slowly breaking down. As we say it in our language, "Naningil na ang lawas."

I hope nothing serious will happen anytime soon because I don't have plans of telling my family. Too many problems especially with budget and all.

Jesus, take the wheel.

Merry Christmas!

 Merry Christmas, everyone!