Tuesday, September 29, 2020

Finished My Letter for My Daughter

This virus really has made me so paranoid for the past 6 months, and the more so now that I am reporting to the office everyday from Monday to Friday. Instead of avoiding potential contact with people carrying the virus, our office decided that we should face it head on. Yes, there are measures taken like masks and face shields and alcohol and physical distancing, but still IT IS DAMN SCARY.

Speaking of scary and paranoia, I just finished making my letter for my daughter which I hope to read to her during her 18th birthday 4 months from now. If ever I won't be around by then, I made sure to (1) leave a copy of the letter somewhere where they can easily find it if I'm not around, and (2) I saved a copy of the letter here in my blog, scheduling it to be automatically published on January 6, 2021.




I don't want to die yet, and leave my daughter, but I will do my best to be prepared in case the inevitable happen. This virus has really changed everyone's lives, at the same time claiming a lot of lives in the process.

"If I die, let me die. Let him(her) live. 
Bring him(her) home.."


Tuesday, September 22, 2020

I Will Miss Our Ancestral Home

Growing up, I lived with my parents in the city while going to school. During weekends, I lived with my cousins in their house in another part of the city. During summer, I lived with my grandparents and grand aunts in the province.

As the years went by, I only got to go home to the province for special occasions. 

Now that my grandmother passed away recently, I don't anymore have any reason to go home except to visit the cemetery. Uncles, aunts, cousins, nieces and nephews still live in our ancestral home - well downstairs anyway - but now that my grand folks are all in Heaven, my visits to the province will become rarer.



Monday, September 21, 2020

Third and Probably the Last Time

I just submitted my third application for a higher position in our office. If I'll still won't be get it, I'll take it as not just a sign, but a big slap on my face that this is not the agency for me. My heart and my ego can only take so much.

This is not too brag, but my educational qualification, my experience, and all my trainings (both attended and conducted) through the years made the Superintendent ask me a lot of times before accepting me if I really wanted to work in this agency at one of the lowest ranking positions. He said that my credentials were more than most Principals, I just don't have experience teaching in a public school setting so I was not able to apply for any higher position. I was willing to start from the bottom, and work my way up.

Two years later, there was a higher position open.
All the published qualification fit me perfectly.
After the initial screening, there were only 2 of us left. The other one was already doing the duties of that position as OIC. I didn't mind. I knew we were both qualified.

Then a plot twist.
She resigned and went to the States.
I was the only one left. That position was mine.

So I thought.

They told me that I lacked one requirement, and I am disqualified.

The requirement that I lacked was one performance rating. The requirement was 3 performance ratings. I had 2 from this office since I was here for 2 years, but I submitted a lot of performance ratings from my previous (private) companies. They said it's not considered, and I'm disqualified.

They said that since no one's accepted to the position, they will close it and then open it at a later time, then I can reapply.

A year later, they reopened the same position with the same requirements and qualifications.
Yes, you bet I was confident. I already had the 3 performance ratings needed since I was in this agency for 3 years already.

De ja vu.

There were again 2 of us left after the initial screening.
This time, I was more confident than the first time because I knew I was more qualified than the other candidate. 

Surprise! Surprise! 
De ja vu? 
You can say that again.

I was again disqualified.
The letter sent by HR said I was disqualified because I lacked experience.
That same letter had a different position indicated aside from misspelling my last name.
I pointed that out, and HR said it was just a typo, and I am still disqualified for lack of experience.

By the way, do you know what a disqualification means?
It means that everything that I have submitted goes down the drain, and they will not look at it anymore, and I will have no more opportunity for an interview.

I was very disappointed, and bitter.
The pain is still fresh until now, so let me just try to break down a few points.

Educational Qualification.
Education Graduate or its equivalent.
Preferably BS Psychology.

Me: 
BS Psychology, Certificate of Professional Education, Master of Arts in Education, PhD in Technology Management.

Her: 
BS Fisheries, Certificate of Professional Education, Masters still On-going.

Experience.
Me: Assisted the President and Heads in a State University in Monitoring & Evaluating the Satellite Campuses for 6 years. 
Her: Worked with aa Fisheries agency before joining this agency.

If I was not disqualified, my credentials were definitely higher than hers, and I know I would've done good during the interview/s. Sad that I was not given both opportunities, and she got the position without any competition.

I am still bitter, and I don't blame her for being the one accepted.
I didn't really believe in influence in government agencies before, but I am a true believer now.
A bitter believer.

So here we are in the present. I just submitted a set of documents to apply for a higher position. Not really a high position, but higher than what I'm holding right now. This is the third time, and probably the last time. Will start looking in other government agencies today. It's difficult to stay in a place where you're not shown that you're appreciated.

Will update you, guys!



Wednesday, September 9, 2020

Mulan's Decision

I loved the new Mulan movie as much as the original one despite the negative reviews of people around. One part of the 1998 classic though that was not that emphasized in the 2020 version was Mulan's Decision. That scene was so epic and beautiful especially with Jerry Goldsmith's score that I decided to rearrange some scenes in the live action movie and use Mr. Goldsmiths awesome score. Initially tried uploading it in YouTube, but it was automatically blocked, so I'm just sharing it here instead. 


No copyright infringement intended. 
I just wanted to see how 2 beautiful elements from both movies go together.