Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Faithfully

Day 11 of the 30 Day Song Challenge - A song from your favorite band

Faithfully by Journey is such a beautiful song when they released it in 1983 with original lead singer Steve Perry, but I feel that the song is more heartfelt and has more soul now as sung by Arnel Pineda. The song describes the relationship of a "music man" on the road and the difficulties of raising and maintaining a family, and a couple becoming like two strangers having to fall in love again, and at the same time, staying faithful while touring.


I'm forever yours...
faithfully ♥

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Canon

Day 10 of the 30 Day Song Challenge - A song that makes you fall asleep

Although I can fall asleep with or without music, Pachelbel's Canon or Canon in D Major is one very beautiful piece of music that not only lets me fall asleep, but relaxes my mind and body. It's one of the more popular classical pieces around.


zzzzzZZZZ...

Monday, March 29, 2010

DFA Experience

At 2:30 AM today, my wife and I went to the Department of Foreign Affairs to renew my passport and to apply for my daughter's passport. When we arrived, there were quite a number of people already lining up outside the office (read: side street), you can just imagine what time they arrived there.

The DFA started giving out priority numbers at around 6:40 AM, 4 hours after we arrived. My wife got #29 while I got #30. The department announced some time ago that everyday, they will be giving out only up to 200 priority numbers, that's why people line up outside very early.

I was optimistic that we would be able to go home early but I was surprised when it was announced that the pending people, or those people asked to go back on that day, will no longer be getting priority numbers and will just be called by names, the same with senior citizens. When they called and asked the pendings and seniors to sit on the plastic benches, there were about 50 of them. 50 more ahead of us, so that makes my #30 really #80. Great!

The office was very small for a national government agency so it was like being inside a big can of sardines. There were only 2 officers receiving and checking the requirements, 4 officers doing the encoding of information and biometrics (thumb prints and picture taking), and 1 VERY SLOW cashier. The whole process was very slow, but when we reached the final step, paying for our everything, the slow process was brought to a full stop by the cashier. He's a big guy, taller than me, but he moved like a princess entering a ball. He would call up names usually in ten's, then after, he would go around to his office mates, then slowly go back to his station, count money, then again and again arranges the money and slowly returns them to the cash register, then looks around, looks at the pending papers in front of him, and goes back to calling the names. The payment part was supposed to be the easiest and fastest part of the whole process. It was as if the cashier didn't want to get the payments. And mind you, now that the DFA is implementing the E-Passport, the fees just increased. It's 950 Pesos for the 22 working-days processing, and 1200 Pesos for the 15 working-days processing.

We were done by 11:40 AM, tired and sleepy. I'm so glad that the passport's life is 5 years. At least, I won't be lining up again for hours to renew it anytime soon. I hope that the DFA will find better ways to renewing passports in 5 years. They can start by telling their people to do their jobs with a little sense of urgency.

Remembering Rico


Today is the 8th anniversary of Rico Yan's sudden demise. I still remember that day clearly, Good Friday 2002, I was at home with my family when the news came. The news shocked the whole nation, and although I wasn't really a big fan, I admired Rico a lot as a person, as a son and brother.

He was a great man, and yes, I believe he was gone too soon.


Dancing with Myself

Day 9 of the 30 Day Song Challenge - A song that you can dance to

I recently went back to my college years and bought a DVD of a Backstreet Boys Concert. Though I'm into music, all kinds of music except heavy metal, I only have 2 fave boy bands: Boyzone and BSB. And every time I listen to most BSB songs, I always find myself dancing to them most especially the song Everybody (Backstreet's Back).

Not a lot of people know this, but I was a dancer before I discovered that I can sing. I was a member of our school's dance group in high school, and now, even though I'm way bigger than I was used to back in high school, I still dance at home if no one's watching. Yes, I make sure that no one else is watching before I start dancing with myself.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Our Song

Day 8 of the 30 Day Song Challenge - A song that you know all the words to

One song that I've sung more than any other song is You Are My Song by my greatest musical influence, Martin Nievera. He composed the song with his best friend Louie Ocampo originally for Regine Velasquez as theme song for Regine's movie, Wanted Perfect Mother. Martin recorded 2 renditions of the song, the acoustic (just a piano for accompaniment) and the Mad Man version (complete orchestration and back-up vocals), and became instant hits too.

During the time when he was making this song, it was just because of the movie. Later on, it became the song that he dedicated to Katrina. This has become Martin's sort of anthem and his concerts are never complete without this song. I, too, have embraced this song and it's still one of the most requested songs in most of my gigs.

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Tell the World of His Love

Day 7 of the 30 Day Song Challenge - A song that reminds you of a certain event

The World Youth Day in Manila 15 years ago is an event I will always remember as long as I live. Not only was it the first time for an Asian country to host the event, it was also Pope John Paul II's second and last visit to the Philippines.

I remember the Pope arriving at the airport and then riding his Pope Mobile, going around Manila waving and blessing everyone. Everyone who saw the Pope that day cried. You can really feel the presence of the Lord in him. I'm crying now as I remember him telling everyone how much he loves the Philippines and promises to return. I cried so hard watching him go up the stairs to the plane. He would have kept his promise 8 years after but he was prevented by his failing health.

The closing mass at the Luneta Park was attended by more than 5 million people, the largest Papal gathering in Roman Catholic history.

Before the event, there was song writing competition for the event's theme song, and though all the finalists were beautiful, the winner truly deserved it. Tell the World of His Love composed by the amazing Trina Belamide and sung by Jeff Arcilla and Raquel Mangaliag is one of the most touching songs I've heard in my life.


We miss you, JP II (+)

Friday, March 26, 2010

Father, I Have Sinned

Day 6 of the 30 Day Song Challenge - A song that reminds you of somewhere

I rarely hear the song The Prodigal Son in church nowadays, but whenever I hear it, wherever I am, I am brought back to my high school years inside the chapel of Don Bosco Technology Center. From Grade 5 until I graduated from high school, we had Mass everyday in school and almost every time, there's this part where the Priest and the people would sing this very beautiful song. The celebrating Priest would sing the chorus while the people would sing the stanzas. I've always known the song as The Prodigal Son, but in YouTube it's entitled Father I have Sinned.


Whatever the real title of the song is, it's one of the most beautiful songs I know, and one of the most meaningful. I just rediscovered this song just in time for the coming Holy Week.

I forgive you, I love you
You are mine, take my hand
Go in peace, sin no more
Beloved One.. ♥

Thursday, March 25, 2010

She Made it Through the Rain

Day 5 of the 30 Day Song Challenge - A song that reminds you of someone

Whenever I hear Mariah Carey's Through the Rain, I remember Shin Shin. This was the song that started it all for her. She sang it during the elimination round of Search for a Star, and wasn't planning to sing it again for the Finals as she had another song in mind. The producers thought Through the Rain would be her best song so they suggested it to her. She sang it, and the rest is history.

Shin totally owns the song from that amazing performance in the Grand Finals, until now. After 5 albums to date, she still includes this song in most of her shows and gigs, and her rendition now is much more powerful and heartfelt. Now in her 6th year in show business, she has weathered all the storms that came her way, and no question she will weather the storms that have yet to come.

When everything will be said and done, she can look back and say she made it through the rain.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Hoping

Not counting the shift I'm in now, I have just 7 working days left in the stressful graveyard shift before I'll be back in the swing shift. I am so looking forward to that because I am stressed and tired of the shift I'm in now. I am reconsidering my plan to resign, it all depends on what will happen in the next few days.

Despite its shortcomings (a lot of them, actually), I still love the company, but I'm really starting to dislike the client. I know I have to deal with it because I'm just an employee, and I am dealing with it. This blog is my buffer. It's cathartic in a way just to let it all out here.

I'm hoping for the best. I've always been optimistic about everything, although there are times when I have my own doubts. Here's hoping everything will turn out fine soon.

A Mother's Goodbye

Day 4 of the 30 Day Song Challenge - A song that makes you sad

Since I'm so engrossed with Les Mis, the first sad song that comes to my mind is Come to Me. It's the song Fantine sings before she dies. She's already very sick at this part of the story and is hallucinating about her little daughter. Listening to the song itself is sad, but watching that particular scene is truly heartbreaking.



For God's sake, please stay till I am sleeping
And tell Cosette I love her
And I'll see her when I wake...

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

One Day More

Day 3 of the 30 Day Song Challenge - A song that makes you happy

One Day More from Les Miserables.

It's the finale for Act One and if sang well, it's breathtaking not just for the audience, but also for the performers. It's a choral song where most of the main characters sing it in a counterpoint style, as well as parts of the ensemble. The song borrows themes from several songs from the first act.



Tomorrow we'll discover what our
God in Heaven has in store.

One more dawn, one more day.
One Day More!

Monday, March 22, 2010

Disbelief

Day 2 of the 30 Day Song Challenge - Your least favorite song

There are a lot of songs I dislike for a lot of different reasons, but one song that comes to mind at this very moment is Believe by Cher. I know that Cher is a legend in the entertainment industry having won an Oscar, a Grammy, an Emmy, three Golden Globes and a People's Choice Award, but I really can't stand listening to her comeback single, yes, the same single that reached the top of the charts and sold more than 1.5 million copies.

I so dislike that song that I won't even post a copy of it here.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Defying Gravity

Day 1 of the 30 Day Song Challenge - Your favorite song

I have a LOT of favorite songs, but if I have to choose one right now, it would be Defying Gravity from the musical Wicked. The melody is just so beautiful and the lyrics fit me so well. Almost all my life, I've always been someone who follows the rules, to the point of giving up on a lot of my hopes and dreams.

In a way, this song is inspiring me to go the distance, to defy gravity this 2010, my 30th year of existence. Some people, especially my parents, may not agree with the things I'll be doing, but I would like to try and fulfill my dreams again. This is not just for me, but for my daughter's future as well.

Here's the pop version of the song by its original Broadway singer, Tony award winner, Idina Menzel.


I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game

Too late for second-guessing

Too late to go back to sleep

It's time to trust my instincts

Close my eyes and leap!




Saturday, March 20, 2010

Playlist

I was again blog-hopping when I stumbled upon another 30 day challenge which I so love.

The 30 Day Song Challenge:

Day 01 - Your favorite song
Day 02 - Your least favorite song
Day 03 - A song that makes you happy
Day 04 - A song that makes you sad
Day 05 - A song that reminds you of someone
Day 06 - A song that reminds of you of somewhere
Day 07 - A song that reminds you of a certain event
Day 08 - A song that you know all the words to
Day 09 - A song that you can dance to
Day 10 - A song that makes you fall asleep
Day 11 - A song from your favorite band
Day 12 - A song from a band you hate
Day 13 - A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 14 - A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 15 - A song that describes you
Day 16 - A song that you used to love but now hate
Day 17 - A song that you hear often on the radio
Day 18 - A song that you wish you heard on the radio
Day 19 - A song from your favorite album
Day 20 - A song that you listen to when you’re angry
Day 21 - A song that you listen to when you’re happy
Day 22 - A song that you listen to when you’re sad
Day 23 - A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 24 - A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 25 - A song that makes you laugh
Day 26 - A song that you can play on an instrument
Day 27 - A song that you wish you could play
Day 28 - A song that makes you feel guilty
Day 29 - A song from your childhood
Day 30 - Your favorite song at this time last year

Again, I will not wait for the new month to start to do this. I'll be starting this tomorrow. ;)

Friday, March 19, 2010

Waiting

Today is my last of training the newest addition to our team. It was a less stressful week for me because I was not that preoccupied with the calls as I was also busy training and briefing him about everything. I know he's ready to take calls so he'll be on his own on Monday taking over the shift left by our teammate who resigned recently. Since he's the newest addition to the very small team that we have, he'll be assigned to the shift where there are virtually no calls. I'm looking forward to that shift myself. Two more weeks in my hated graveyard shift and finally I'll also be chilling in the swing shift.

Hay, can we just fast forward to April? I still feel stressed with my present shift. I know the stress level is lower now but I feel kinda traumatized already. So sad.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Finally

Day 30 of the 30 Day Challenge - Whatever Tickles your Fancy

Right now, all I can think about is singing. I'm still so happy and high after we've finally started our rehearsals after months and months of being disappointed. I'm also very happy because not only did I meet new, talented and beautiful friends, my beautiful and talented cousins also joined our group. The last time I saw them was when they were still very young, and though we became officemates in my previous company, I was too shy to talk to them so we didn't really know each other well despite being related.

I am hoping that this will be the beginning of bigger things for the group, and for everyone. It was so nice to see them pumped up and excited to learn the songs. This will not be easy, but I know the ride will be fun and worth it having these people around.

Can't wait for our next rehearsals this coming Saturday, I know it's going to be a blast again.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Hope and Dream

Day 29 of the 30 Day Challenge - Hopes, Dreams and Plans for the next 365 Days

My family and I will hopefully be visiting Hong Kong a couple of months from now to de-stress and get away from the pressures of work for a few days. If I'll be resigning from work before that trip, that means I have to look for another job when we get back. If I'll be allowed to go on that short vacation, then at least I would be able to go back to my job refreshed, and ready again to face the challenges that await me.

Speaking of work, I'm kinda hoping to find a higher paying job either here in the Philippines, or I'll be forced to look for one in another country. Leaving my family to work in a foreign land is something I don't want to do, but something I must do if I want a brighter future for us all. I need to do that so we can continue processing my wife's application for Australia. We started but we stopped since we ran out of funds. What we already paid (a really big amount already) will go to waste if we just go in another direction.

Also, since we've already started our informal rehearsals for our musical, I hope and pray that this will continue and that a few months from now, we may be able to successfully present this production. Even if it's sort of a hobby for us, it also entails a lot of hard work and sacrifices for everyone, but I'm sure it will all be worth it once we're already up there on stage.

I still have a lot of hopes and dreams this year, I will be talking about them in future posts.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

A Blur

Day 28 of the 30 Day Challenge - This year, in Great Detail

Looking back since the new year started, it has all been a blur. As I enter the 75th day of 2010, I can say that it has been a rollercoaster ride so far. I've had some Up's and I've had some Down's, things that are keeping me on my toes and reminding me that life is not easy and I shouldn't be complacent.

This year, I've also had a lot of realizations, most especially about people, friends who proved themselves to be called such, as well as so-called friends who really were not. I've realized that being colleagues without being friends is possible. It's not something I want, but something others want.

Again, I can't describe my year in great detail, but I can say that it has been an interesting year so far. I'm happy that for all the things that happened, good or not-so-good, I have my family to go home to. They keep me grounded and remind me that despite what others think or say about me, life is still beautiful and I am still loved. Yes, I am not perfect, my life is not perfect, and my year is no where near perfect, but as long as I have my family and friends, real friends, I wouldn't trade this for anything else.

Monday, March 15, 2010

Waiting for April

Day 27 of the 30 Day Challenge - This Month, in Great Detail

Because of the issues in the office, this month has been Hell so far for me.

It has also been an uninteresting month so far. Stressful work during weekdays, and if not for my family, it would have also been boring weekends. There would have been a lot of things to do to make my weekends interesting if I just had extra budget. Sadly, I'm not earning as much as what I've been earning before and my salary is not even enough to pay for my daughter's tuition and other payables.

I can't wait for this month to end so I'll have a different shift. I would have wanted to submit my resignation letter last week, but decided to submit it around the end of this month with its effectivity by the end of April. At least, I'll be less stressed with my shift in April.

I know it wasn't in great detail, but then again, there's really nothing interesting to talk about.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Typical Week

Day 26 of the 30 Day Challenge - Your Week, in Great Detail

Mondays to Fridays, I am working 9 hours a day. The remaining 15 hours of each day, I make sure to spend with my family, do extra curricular activities and sleep. Before I was just contented with sleeping for an hour or two, but now as I'm getting older, I'm trying my best to get as much rest as I can. My body is willing, but my mind most of the time thinks that sleeping is a waste of time.

During weekends, I try to relax as much as I can to rest from the stress of work. Most of my weekends, I spend it with my family, usually having a DVD marathon. Because I am usually busy during weekdays, I try my very best to make it up to my family during weekends. Sometimes when there are rehearsals or bonding time with friends, I try my best to have it at home so I am still with my family while being with friends.

Gigs are also usually during weekends, but now that there are a lot of changes like churches not allowing any other songs (aside from religious ones) during weddings, my number of gigs have gone way down. There are a few gigs during weekdays, but most happen during weekends. If I have a weekend gig, I go straight home after to relax and be with my family.

Not really in great detail, but that's how my week goes most of the time. Yeah, I know it's boring but I wouldn't trade it for the world.

Great Weekend

My weekend was busy but fun. Yesterday, some CTC members went to the house to hang out and to start familiarizing some of the songs for the planned musical. Today, I was able to hang out with one of my closest friends in high school who's now based in London. This is actually the first time we've seen each other after 10 years. We went to Cebu Coliseum to watch the PPV of Manny Pacquiao's fight with Josh Clottey, but since Clottey decided to become a turtle rather than a fighter, we had a lot of time to talk and catch up. Looking forward to seeing Lars again before he goes back to London next week.

Speaking of Clottey, he was a major disappointment in the biggest fight of his career. Yes, he was dancing his way to the ring, and yes, I think he's physically strong. He was just too scared to fight. He was really like a turtle who spent the whole 12 rounds hiding. I expected a lot from him since he has a fairly good record, but it turned out, he was just contented becoming a punching bag for Pacman. How bad was the fight? Pacman threw 1231 punches, while Clottey threw just 399, and a lot of it was during the final round already.

Except for the disappointing fight, my weekend was fun that I'm already looking forward to the next one.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

A Day in My Life

Day 25 of the 30 Day Challenge - Your Day, In Great Detail

I have a very boring life. It was not always like this. But ever since I decided to leave my stable academe job for the unstable BPO industry, my life became routinary, almost stagnant and uninteresting.

For this month, my shift is from 9:30 PM to 6:30 AM, so I am in the office at those times. I'm home at around 7:30 AM, and help my daughter prepare for school. I check my emails, facebook and twitter, then I usually vocalize before I hit the sack at around 2:00 PM. I wake up at 6:00 PM, eat dinner and catch up with the family. Around 8:00 PM, I prepare for work, and leave the house at around 9:00 PM.

During weekends, it's more on de-stressing and relaxation like theatre and singing rehearsals, and sometimes, a few gigs every now and then. If it's a boring weekend, bonding time with the family and DVD marathons make it interesting.

Friday, March 12, 2010

Fall Guy

Day 24 of the 30 Day Challenge - Whatever Tickles Your Fancy

Tonight, our Operations Coordinator was here to conduct an investigation as to what really happened as ordered by the CEO (owner) of the company. We talked for about an hour, and after that, he also spoke with my office mates. Management really wants me to take the fall for what happened. They just can't admit that the incident happened because the computers in the office are very ancient.

Whatever decision they come up with, I am ready. They've been blaming me from the start, so I won't be surprised if they'll blame me officially in front of my client. Having a fall guy is such an easy thing to do rather than admit to the client that the company is using old computers with old CRT monitors.

I've started to update my curriculum vitae already. I don't want to leave the company. Not yet anyway, but if worst comes to worst, I am ready. My conscience is clear, and I'm happy my office mates are on my side because they are the ones who know the real story as they are with me the whole shift. Sometimes though, that's still not enough if you're against high and mighty individuals who are closed-minded.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Thankless

I received an email from our Operations Coordinator and CEO asking (it sounded more like demanding) an explanation where I was towards the end of my shift yesterday when calls were left unanswered. Their email, though asking for an explanation, had the tone that they've already passed judgment on me and accused me of dozing off during my shift. Dozing off? Hello? I've been working for customer service in the graveyard shift for more than 3 years now, and dozing off was never an issue.

Great! The internet connection on my assigned PC suddenly got disconnected, and while I was frantically looking for a solution, my client conveniently sent a ticket to our company's owner, so the company is now blaming me. Six months of working my ass off and doing everything I can to please the company and the client, and I get this.

Hell, it's now my fault that I've been working with an obsolete (read: antique) PC all this time. Why my PC was the only one disconnected is beyond me, but the fact is that it got disconnected and I'm getting the fall for it. I am very much disappointed as I am pissed.

I've already sent a detailed explanation on what happened, and right now I am seriously contemplating on leaving the company. Ever since I've started here, I've always looked at the brighter side, even if things were falling apart around me. I've seen much more people resign from this company in the 6 months that I've been here compared to the previous company I was with for 2 years. Maybe I was just looking the other way before, but now I see why people were/are unhappy here. Maybe I was just fooling myself that everything was okay, and though I tried so hard to share that happiness with my office mates, the negative vibes' just too great.

I can't wait for the weekend to relax. I am feeling unhealthy with all this stress around me. This is really a thankless job.

*sigh*

Her Time to Shine

Day 23 of the 30 Day Challenge - A YouTube Video


It was in 2001 when I last saw a very talented lady and a dear friend. Back then she just gave birth to cute baby girl. I didn't expect that the next time I'll see her will be on TV 9 years after..



I'm so proud of Ate Josephine. She worked hard all her life to give her daughter a good life. Hoping and praying this would be the start of her reaping the fruits of her labor. :)

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Another Wolf

I just can't understand why people have to pull down others in order to pull themselves up. Can't they just mind their own business? Like this guy who's trying to project an image of someone very confident, very superior, yet he's pulling others, his own teammates, down by badmouthing them. I always believe that action speak heaps than words, and by what he's doing, mudslinging his own officemates, his own teammates, he's showing to the world what he really is.

Since he's the oldest in the team in terms of age, experience and tenure, I would have expected him to assist us those who came after him. There are times that he's showing that he's trying to help us, but after learning everything, I can't help but think that the assistance he supposedly gave us before was just a part of his ploy to destroy us.

Is this guy insecure? I'm starting to think he is.

I just discovered another wolf.

*sigh*

You've Got (G)mail

Day 22 of the 30 Day Challenge - A Website


I have a lot of favorite websites but one website I visit many times a day is Gmail. It is my link to everyone and almost everything because it is where I receive email notifications from my accounts in Facebook, Twitter, YouTube, Blogspot, and even Multiply & Friendster even if I don't check them anymore.

My Gmail addy is my second email account since I started learning about the internet in college. My very first email was a Rocketmail account which disappeared after Yahoo! bought Rocketmail.

A couple other sites that I visit regularly include NBA.com and Philstar.com.


Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Leche Flan

Day 21 of the 30 Day Challenge - A Recipe


One of my most fave to cook and eat is Leche Flan. We have our family secret (passed down from generation to generation) on how to make a mouth-watering leche flan, but since it is a secret, I'll be sharing a different (but still yummy) way to make one.

Ingredients:
  • 1 can (390g) evaporated milk
  • 1 can (390g) condensed milk
  • 10 egg yolks
  • 1 teaspoon of vanilla extract or lemon essence
For the caramel:
  • 1 cup sugar
  • 3/4 cup water

Instructions:
  1. In a saucepan, mix the sugar & water. Bring to a boil for a few minutes until the sugar caramelize.
  2. Pour the caramelized sugar into aluminum moulds - you can use any shape: oval, round or square. Spread the caramel on the bottom of the moulds.
  3. Mix well the evaporated milk, condensed milk, egg yolks and vanilla by hand or blender.
  4. Gently pour the mixture on top of the caramel on the aluminum moulds. Fill the moulds to about 1 to 1 1/4 inch thick.
  5. Cover moulds individually with aluminum foil.
  6. Steam for about 20 minutes (the traditional way to make Leche Flan is by open-air steaming on either an open cooking fire or stove top) OR
  7. Bake for about 45 minutes. Before baking the Leche Flan, place the moulds on a larger baking pan half filled with very hot water. Pre-heat oven to about 370 degrees before baking.
  8. Let cool then refrigerate.
To serve: Run a thin knife around the edges of the mould to loosen the Leche Flan. Place a platter on top of the mould and quickly turn upside down to position the golden brown caramel on top.


Cooking Tip: You can tell when the Leche Flan is cooked by inserting a toothpick - if it comes out clean, it is cooked.

Monday, March 8, 2010

DVD

Day 20 of the 30 Day Challenge - A Hobby of Yours


When I was younger, I've always been athletic and very active with sports particularly basketball. Now that I'm older and always stressed with work, I look forward to my rest days so I can rest, relax and recharge.

My new hobby: DVD watching.

It's entertaining, inexpensive and it's something that I can do with my family during weekends. Best thing about it is we do at the comfort of our own home.

Yes, I buy original DVD's and VCD's, most especially if the movie is something worth watching and re-watching. It's all good since the prices of the original discs have dropped so much because of piracy. I have friends from showbiz, and this is my little way of helping the entertainment industry.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Singing

Day 19 of the 30 Day Challenge - A Talent of Yours

Singing.

I don't consider it a talent, but a gift given to me by the Divine so I can share it with others. No, I don't think I'm a good singer. I don't even consider myself a singer, just someone who loves music and who loves to sing.

I've been singing publicly (it started in school) since I was 5 years old, but started coming out of my shell when I joined theatre in high school. Ever since, I've been blessed to have been invited to sing in weddings, parties, company events, variety shows, TV shows and concerts. It's also because of singing that I've met a lot of new friends, some of which are from show business. Singing, though not really something I can make a career of, has given me a lot and made me what I am today, that's why I consider it a blessing.

There are also a lot of regrets I have had with singing, but those are things in the past that I can't do anything about anymore. I believe in second chances, and I believe that if something is really meant for me, it will be mine in His own time.

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Twilight Zone

Day 18 of the 30 Day Challenge - Whatever Tickles Your Fancy


I got this picture passed around Facebook but I don't know who or when this was made. Now I haven't seen nor I have any plans of watching Twilight or New Moon, but I love this picture for the sole reason that my favorite vampire is here: The Daywalker or more popularly known as Blade.


After Blade is done with these lovebirds, there will be no more Eclipse movie to be shown this year. :)

Friday, March 5, 2010

Mulan

Day 17 of the 30 Day Challenge - An Art Piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)


An old piece of art I did when I was 17 years old.


The flower that blooms in adversity
is the most rare and beautiful of all.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

You Can Let Go Now

Day 16 of the 30 Day Challenge - A Song That Makes You Cry (Or Nearly)

One song that makes me cry every time I hear it is You Can Let Go Now by Crystal Shawanda. It affects me both as a son to my parents, and as a parent to my own daughter. It reminds of the circle of life, and how fast the years go by. I can still remember the things I did when I was in first grade, and now my daughter is going to be in first grade herself. I love my daughter so much that if I had a choice, I would want to keep her forever. But that's just not how life is. *sigh*

Wind blowin’ on my face
Sidewalk flyin’ beneath my bike
A five year-old’s first taste
Of what freedom’s really like
He was runnin’ right beside me
His hand holdin’ on the seat
I took a deep breath and hollered
As I headed for the street

You can let go now, Daddy
You can let go
Oh, I think I’m ready
To do this on my own
It’s still a little bit scary
But I want you to know
I’ll be ok now, Daddy
You can let go

I was standin’ at the altar
Between the two loves of my life
To one I’ve been a daughter
To one I soon would be a wife
When the preacher asked,
‘Who gives this woman?’
Daddy’s eyes filled up with tears
He kept holdin’ tightly to my arm
‘Till I whispered in his ear

You can let go now, Daddy
You can let go
Oh, I think I’m ready
To do this on my own
It still feels a little bit scary
But I want you to know
I’ll be ok now, Daddy
You can let go

It was killin’ me to see
The strongest man I ever knew
Wastin’ away to nothin’
In that hospital room
‘You know he’s only hangin’ on for you’
That’s what the night nurse said
My voice and heart were breakin’
As I crawled up in his bed, and said

You can let go now, Daddy
You can let go
Your little girl is ready
To do this on my own
It’s gonna be a little bit scary
But I want you to know
I’ll be ok now, Daddy
You can let go
You can let go

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

No Place Like Home

Day 15 of the 30 Day Challenge - A Fanfic


I tried to look for the fanfics I made when I was younger but I only found one, written a long time ago before the second X-Men movie was released.


My apologies if it's quite long.


"Cut" Bryan Singer yelled, his effort to keep a behind-schedule X-Men 2 on-schedule coming to a stop yet again.

Hugh Jackman groaned. Jimmy Marsden, for whatever reason, just couldn't seem to get through his lines without giggling and Fam and Halle were starting to catch the bug, too. Normally, he'd be infected as well, but today he just wasn't in the mood. Long hours on the set, early mornings training and Oscar being sick keeping him and Deb up most of the night, all contributed to his grumpy ill-humor. Dourly, Hugh paced off-camera to wait. Someone behind him suddenly yelled a warning, but before he could turn, he felt a sharp pain against his head, his eyes tunnel-visioned, his ears rang and blackness engulfed him.

Then, as if from a distance, he heard a familiar voice and felt himself being shaken. Hugh opened his eyes and stared into Cyclops visor. "Jimmy, " he muttered, his hand reflexively going to his head, though he felt no pain now.

"Jimmy?" Scott Summers repeated "You must have hit your head harder then usual, Logan."

"Logan?" Hugh echoed, still dazed as he felt himself helped to his feet. He stared around. He was standing in the same dark alley that had been part of the set, but this was no set. There were no cameras, lights or crew. "What happened?" he demanded. "Where's everybody?"

"I don't know, " Summers replied quizzically. "You chased Avalanche down here. You tell me."

Hugh stared at him. Even with lifts, Marsden was never so tall. Then he laughed lightly and said loudly, "Okay, this was a bloody good joke, but games over, time to come out!"

Summers scowled. Just then Jean, Storm and Nightcrawler ran into the alley, stopping breathlessly beside him.

Nightcrawler said, "I say it be some spell 'fore dey show dey faces again."

Hugh stared afresh at this look-alike for Allan Cumming.

"What's the matter Logan?" Storm asked softly, her voice tainted with a middle-eastern accent, "You look like you've seen a ghost."

"What happened?" Jean hissed to Scott.

"One head knock too many I think. We need to get him back, check him over." Scott grasped Hugh's arm, but he snatched it back."Wait a minute. Who are you? Where's Bryan? Where's the crew? What's going on?"

Scott just nodded to Jean. She stepped back, extended her hands and levitated a protesting Hugh Jackman, who looked like Logan to them, into the air and floated him to the jet. Experiencing real mutant power threw him into an immediate terrified silence and when they reached the jet, he could only gawk at the huge SR77, standing there as real as he was. At their urging, he reluctantly clambered on-board, his stomach flip-flopping with nausea. "This has to be a dream, " he mumbled to himself. They directed him to his usual seat behind Storm and he fumbled the head-set on while staring around the jet's interior, so similar to the set mock-up with one minor exception -- this one worked.

He watched Scott maneuver her smoothly as they lifted-off, then over the head-set listened to him converse with someone he could only assume was Xavier, though he'd have sworn it was Patrick Stewart's voice. He and his "scrambled brain" were the topic of their conversation. "This is worse then a dream, " he told himself, " it's a bloody nightmare."

In the hangar, he shakily clambered down the jet's ladder, his eyes roaming curiously around the huge underground port that housed it before allowing Jean and Scott to each take him by an arm and lead him docilely to the medical lab. There, the door hissed open, making him jump nervously and inside, Patrick Stewart's look-a-like, seated in his wheelchair, waited for them. Hugh gawked, astounded at how much the lab looked like the set, though he spotted some technology here and there he couldn't recognize. It was also chilly and he shuddered involuntarily, perhaps more from shock then cold.

Jean raised the exam table from the floor, then patted it. Reluctantly, he perched his butt on it as directed, feeling like the proverbial bug-under-a-microscope.

"So, " Xavier said, "What happened, Logan?"

"I'm not Logan." He had to resist calling him Pat.

"Ah. Who do you think you are then?"

Annoyed by this childish patronizing, Hugh snapped, "Listen. I don't know what's going on. All I know is I'm an actor who just plays Logan on a movie. My name's Hugh Jackman."

"What do think?" Scott asked Xavier, " Split personality? Or has he finally just gone loopy?"

Hugh eyed the young X-men leader. His austere and commanding sense of presence was a sharp contrast to Jimmy Marsden's more easy-going manner.

Xavier only frowned thoughtfully. "What year is it...Mr. Jackman?"

"2003" Hugh didn't miss the sudden rise of Cyclops eyebrows above his visor.

"And who is President of the United States?"

"Bush, " then effecting a strong accent, added, "Though, I'm Aussie, mate."

Jean and Storm both snickered. "Cute accent, " Jean remarked.

Scott and Xavier only exchanged looks, then Scott said, "I was eleven in 03 and I don't remember any movies about Logan."

He stared at them. "Are you saying this is the future?"

"Maybe not yours, " Xavier replied with furrowed brow.

"I know who I am." Hugh retaliated doggedly to cover his own confusion. "I don't care if I look like him, I'm not him. I'm married, got a kid and I act for a living. That's it."

"Why don't you lay down and relax, Mr. Jackman." Xavier calmly instructed his rankled patient. "If you'll permit me, I can verify what you're telling us."

"You want to do that mind reading thing, don't you?"

Xavier smiled reassuringly. “I won't harm you”

Hugh scanned the ring of intrigued and perplexed faces around him, heaved a sigh, then patiently obeyed. Xavier wheeled around to his head and held his hands an inch away on either side.

"Can you get me back?" Hugh interrupted.

"We'll try. Now relax, Mr. Jackman." Xavier closed his eyes for several minutes. When he opened them, he said. "I'd like Jean to do a CT scan on you -- just to confirm some things before I speculate further.”

Hugh nodded and reluctantly shifted to the CT table, letting Jean slide him inside the familiar prop-machine that now wasn't a prop. He squinted in the brightness and listened nervously as it's banks of lights clicked in sequence around him, having never heard them before. Sound was normally post-production.

Outside everyone peered at the monitor, seeing exactly what they'd expect on Logan's skeleton, adamantium.

"Hmmm," Xavier mused. "It's Logan's body alright, but not his mind."

"You're kidding, " Scott murmured. Xavier shook his head.

"We be in big trouble den, " Gambit muttered, his arms folded on his chest.

"Not necessarily, " Xavier replied. "He is an actor. He could play the part."

Scott frowned dubiously, considering that as Jean slid the table back out and Hugh eagerly hopped off, glad to be out. "Well?"

"What do you remember?" Xavier asked.

"Getting whacked on the nog"

Xavier looked to Scott, "And Logan was unconscious?" He nodded. "Well, the CT shows adamantium on your skeleton proving that is Logan's body, " Xavier explained, gesturing at Hugh, "However in mind, you are who you say you are. Hugh Jackman, an actor."

"Crimy. Are you suggesting some kind of switch happened while I was unconscious? I'm here and he's there?"

"More then that. I think you've crossed a dimensional plane into an alternate reality. In your world, we are mere fiction, but here--- quite real."

Hugh ran his fingers through his hair, swearing under his breath. "This is a bloody mess! My wife and kid are back there. They'll think he's me--what'll happen?"

"It's hard to say. He'll certainly be more lost and confused then you, " Xavier assured.

"And helpless, " Scott added. "No adamantium."

"Then knock me out and get me back!"

"We have a slightly more pressing problem to contend with before we figure out how to get you home."

Xavier told this distressed looking Wolverine. "There's an important rendezvous Logan has to keep tomorrow night." Pausing, Xavier quickly checked his watch and since it was after one am, corrected himself. "Well, actually tonight. The contact only knows Logan and only agreed to meet with Logan for the exchange."

Hugh stared at Professor Xavier, still feeling like Singer could yell "cut" any minute and Patrick Stewart would hop-up. "You want me to impersonate Logan?"

"You said you're an actor, " Scott challenged. "Get in character. Give us a sample."

Hugh eyed Summers hotly, then paced away, channeling those emotions to connect to his projection of Logan and when he turned back, he was Logan. With a haughty glare, he walked right up to Summers, jabbed a finger into his chest and gruffly snarled, "Don't tell me what to do -- Cyclops."

The girls and Kurt Wagner gave him a little round of applause. Scott smirked, "It'll do."

Hugh rolled his shoulders around to release tension and looked at Xavier. "You really think I can pull it off?"

"Easily."

"Well, give me some kinda script then and I'll adlib from there.”

"We can do that. Scott, will you show Mr. Jackman to Logan's room. It's late and tomorrow will be a big day -- for all of us."

Lost in his own thoughts, Hugh walked silently with Scott to the elevator that took them to the first floor, then upstairs to his room where Scott left him on his own. He got ready for bed, hoping, as he slid under the covers, he'd wake up at home, beside Deb and this all would just be some vague, far away dream.

He was disappointed. He woke-up still in Xavier's mansion, the clock face telling him it was nine am. Grimly, he got up and dressed. It was weird looking in a mirror at a face that was, yet wasn't his. He looked like Wolverine without the daily make-up or goo to keep his hair in place. He ran a brush through the thick, wavy mat, fascinated at how Logan's cowlick's curled-up like devil's horns on their own. Then he stepped out into the hallway, paused long enough to figure out which direction he'd come from last night, then headed for the stairs. He found Storm waiting for him at the bottom.

"Good morning, Mr. Jackman, " she smiled. "Are you hungry?'

He nodded. "Call me Hugh."

"This way, " she said.

He walked with her, noting how different her hair was from Halle's wig, how it hung in thick, wavy stresses and how strikingly exotic and graceful she was. The dining hall turned out to be a large room with mounted deer, boar and antelope heads still decorating the high walls and a blazing stone fireplace. He politely collected breakfast from the elderly ladies behind the steam-tables, then joined Scott at a table where he was rapidly grading some papers.

He glanced up at Hugh's approach. "Good morning, Log...," stopped, then corrected himself. "… Mr. Jackman."

"Hugh." Sitting, he surveyed Scott's stack of books and papers as Storm joined them with her own fresh cup of tea. "What do you teach?" he ventured.

"Everything from basic math to Trig. The kids are different ages, so I have to teach several levels in one class."

Hugh nodded as he dug in hungrily. He'd never once thought how smart Summers had to be. He squeezed out his tea-bag and added half-and-half to his teacup, then suddenly felt stared at. He looked up. "What?"

"Logan usually drinks black coffee, " Storm answered.

"And calls drinking tea like that sissified, " Scott chuckled.

"He would, " Hugh snorted, storing that tidbit away to use for his character sometime.

"It's hard adjusting to you looking like Logan without being Logan, " Scott added.

"I could say the same thing about you. You could be twins with the guy who plays you -- just taller."

Scott smiled at that and, finished with his grading, neatly stacked the homework papers to one side. "I've always heard everyone's supposed to have a doppelganger, " he replied, then got up to refill his teacup.

"It must be strange for you -- being here, " Storm said.

Hugh glanced at her and sighed, nodding. "Strange. Confusing. Scary. All that." He pushed his tray aside. Scott returned, gave his watch a quick check, then stirred half-and-half into his own tea. Hugh observed the real Cyclops was quite dapper. Even his jeans were pressed with perfect creases. "So, " Hugh dared, "what's this exchange tonight about?"

Scott shrugged. "It's Logan's baby. All we know is it's supposed to be valuable mutant intelligence and he believed his contact reliable enough to arrange the pickup."

"So you really don't know who I'm meeting?"

He shook his head. "But don't worry. We'll be nearby."

"Lovely." Hugh toyed with his fork, his ideas wandering then to something else he'd been thinking of. "If I have Logan's adamantium, then I also have his claws?" They both nodded. "So, how does he make them come out?"

Storm and Scott exchanged a glance.

"I suppose he just thinks about it, " Storm offered.

Scott snorted with a bemused smile. "It's never come up before and we never asked, but even if you could, would you know what to do with them? They're not what I'd call safe playthings."

"I worked with a real set while filming. No problem." Pride made him deliberately skip mentioning all the times he'd either cut or stabbed himself with even the pretend ones.

Scott checked his watch again. "Well, time for class." He slid his papers into a folder and collected his books. "I guess you'll just have to go outside and figure it out. See you at lunch." Then left.

"I've got class, too, " Storm agreed. Then placing her hand on his forearm, gently added, "Good luck -- and be careful." Hugh mulled things over a bit longer before clearing out and heading outside to do just what Summers suggested -- figure it out.

He decided being outside was a good thing. No one could hear him cuss the first time he managed to get those things out. He didn't expect the sharp, stinging pain that came when they pierced his skin and, because it broke his concentration before he got them locked in place, they slipped back in again. Nor could anyone see him looking ridiculous, dancing around, shaking his hands out and rubbing his knuckles either. Fortunately, it was a very quick pain, but still enough to make him hesitate. Then, bracing himself, he reached deep inside for Logan's rage and with a bellow, popped the claws fully into place. After that, he shadow-boxed through all the fighting motions he'd used on the set and becoming exhilarated, couldn't resist snarling, “No one messes with the Wolverine!” Finally, hot and sweating, he winced only slightly as he retracted the blades, started to walk away, then spun and snapped them back into place as if confronting an imaginary attacker, testing his control. Satisfied, he retracted them again as he walked toward the school. It was only then the possibility of actually having to use them, maybe even put them through somebody in real life, sank in and the fun of it disappeared. His stomach churned with anxiety and fear. He wasn't Wolverine. He was just Hugh Jackman, actor, husband, father -- who'd never been in a life and death scrape his entire life. Humbled, he spent his time until lunch exploring Xavier's vast mansion, in particular the garage full of classics and Scott's custom motorcycle. Just for a look-see.

Back in the dining hall for lunch, Hugh immediately noticed he drew many glances as he got in line, no doubt because news he was an "imposter" had gotten around. He glimpsed Rogue a few of people ahead of him with Gambit, but any resemblance to Anna Paquin proved only skin deep as soon as she turned her stormy and angst-filled gaze on him. It had a darkness that Anna, of course, didn't and Rogue's gothic make-up accented it. In fact, most of the students had a sense of grimness about them quite apart from the actors who portrayed them. It was eerie and he could only assume it due their hard life experiences as mutants. Rogue ignored him after that, returning her attention to Gambit.

He settled cheerfully at a table with the rest of the team and Xavier.

"So, " Scott immediately asked, "did you figure it out?"

He nodded. "No problem, " then dug hungrily into his food, having worked up an appetite and letting conversation drift away from him to other topics. He didn't want to go into the in-securities he was having.

After lunch, Xavier had him come to his office to give him at least the sketchy details of the plan, with sketchy being the operating word, and rehearse his part. Xavier explained then that Scott only had coordinates to land in a specified location in the outback of Alaska, where he, as Logan, was supposed to go a cabin, meet his contact, collect the whatever, then get back on the jet and fly back. He surveyed the page of meager script Xavier had given him with dismay. "I don't see how I can cover not knowing who I'm meeting or what I'm asking for."

"Bluff." Xavier replied. "Logan's not a man of many words -- use that to your advantage. Force your contact do the talking."

He nodded dubiously. "It seems to me Logan's left you a little high and dry on this one. I'm surprised you don't keep him on a shorter leash."

"This is hardly a run-of-mill circumstance, Mr. Jackman. Consciousnesses don't trade places everyday, so its a little hard to anticipate. As for Logan -- he may march to his own drums, but I've always found him trustworthy."

Hugh nodded, absorbing these little character revelations.

"Shall we rehearse?" Xavier invited.

He nodded again, stood and approached Xavier as his contact, imagining a cabin in frozen waste and Xavier drilled him over and over until his performance as Logan was smooth, regardless of what he threw at him. After that, he had all afternoon and the rest of the evening till flight time to try to stay busy and try not to worry, though he didn't have much appetite at dinner.

Too soon, it was time to don uniforms for their late night flight. He changed beside Scott, slipping back into Logan's real X-men uniform and noting it's many improvements over his costume version. It had some kind of protective environmental-knit lining that kept it's wearer either warm or cool and a built-in protective cup, a little nicety that might've spared him from being nearly castrated by his flying-harness in the first film had his costumer been so thoughtful.

"Nervous?" Scott asked, trying to lighten the mood.

Hugh put a hand to his stomach. "Worst then opening night. Can't tell whether to chuck or pee on myself." He'd certainly done his share of both at one time or another.

Scott chuckled and clapped him on the shoulder. "You'll do all right." Then passed him his X-men arctic gear consisting of a black parka, heavy scarf and ski-goggles. Hugh made one last pit stop before heading for the jet, just to be sure and, since he wasn't going, Wagner politely shook his hand goodbye, wishing him luck.

In Alaska, he dropped down the ladder and joined his team standing on the snow surveying the cold, twilight landscape. Close to midnight, it was that time of year when arctic nights are short and barely night at all. Several hundred feet away, a cabin stood framed against snow-covered furs and low hills that ascended into majestic peaks in the distance behind it. It was far prettier then he even imagined and, under other circumstances, he might have enjoyed it more. He looked to Scott, who nodded, then signaled the rest of his team to break up and take their positions. Hugh squared his shoulders, got in character and crunched resolutely through the snow towards the cabin.

As he neared it, the pungent scent of burning wood greeted him, assuring him someone was home. He pulled the goggles and scarf down to expose his face, then knocked on the door. It opened a crack and a woman of intoxicating beauty peered out, her skin white as porcelain, her hair short and black and her eyes the deepest violet-blue he'd ever seen. He scowled impatiently to hide his surprise.

She smiled. "Logan. Come in."

Brushing past her, he strode toward the fireplace, stopped in front of it, threw back his hood and glanced around the meager decor giving himself time to re-coop. He hadn't expected this. Then he faced the strange woman dressed simply in boots, pants and a bulky, red sweater that did little to hide her figure and arched his left brow as if to say, "Well?"

"Don't you have anything to say to me, Logan?" she asked.

"I'm not here for a social call, " he retorted brusquely.

Her full lips pouted. "You never were one to mince words."

He shrugged one shoulder as if indifferent, waiting for her to offer the item. He had no idea what sort of history these two had, but whatever it was, obviously her coals for Logan still burned bright and it made him cautious of asking exactly what it was she had for him. That could get him in trouble he didn't want to be in.

She came up beside him then, reached to the mantle, opened a small box, removed something and silently handed it to him. He looked at two three-inch DSD's, then pocketed them. "Thanks."

"Is that all?" she asked, her eyes beseeching.

Suddenly, before he decide how to reply, something burst through the wall and exploded into flames, startling them both. It was followed by a second flaming projectile. Grabbing his arm, she hurriedly towed him toward the rear of the cabin, snatching up her own parka before they reached the back door. Outside, she jerked a tarp off a snowmobile.

"They're after me, not you." she informed him, throwing the tarp in a heap to one side, then zipping-up her parka. "I'll try to draw them off so you can get away."

He could hear the approaching whines of other snowmobiles, increasing explosions and yelling voices. Maybe Scott's. "Better hurry, " he said.

She took a step toward the snowmobile, then paused, turned back, seized him by his parka collar, pulled him to her and planted a kiss on his lips before he knew what was happening. Then, just as abruptly, she let go, whispered, "Take care of yourself -- like you always do, " then leaped on her snowmobile, started it and roared off without a backward glance.

He just stood shivering in the freezing air, stunned until a fresh explosion shook him back to reality. The far end of the cabin was already ablaze, so he ran to the end that wasn't on fire, crouched and peered around the corner to watch Logan's lady friend loop around front to catch her adversaries attention, then swing back into the trees with them hot on her trail. Then Hugh peered cross the snow plain in the direction of the jet, trying to decide whether he should make a break for it or not. Fog was rapidly building up, probably thanks to Storm, and he could see Cyclop's red optic beams firing after the retreating snowmobiles. One exploded into flames. Finally deciding to make a dash, Hugh plunged into the fog, running low and aiming where that red beam originated. Then, as if it were filled with land-mines, the snow around him began randomly exploding and he could only guess it was some mutant thing. Terrified, he didn't know what else to do but keep running and try a little zig-zagging. Suddenly, a explosion behind him blew him face-first into the snow, but he scrambled up and ran on, his lungs aching with cold and pulse pounding in his temples. He could make out Scott waving him in before he heard another explosion and felt a sharp pain on his head, the impact plowing him into the snow again. Dazed, he rolled onto his back, his ears ringing. The last thing he saw was Scott's visored face leaning over him, calling his name, "Hugh, Hugh!"

"I got it, " Hugh mumbled as he pried his eyes open and felt for his pocket. Funny, he couldn't feel any parka.

"Got what?''

Hugh Jackman rolled his eyes upward to Patrick Stewart crouched above his head, his face concerned, then glanced around at all their concerned faces, Jimmy, Famke, Halle, Mike and Bryan. He was back! His hand reflexively went to the goog on the back of his head as he struggled to sit up. "How long was I out?" It felt like two days.

"Just a few seconds, " Jimmy replied.

Hugh looked into those clear blue eyes. "That's all?" Jimmy nodded. "And nothing unusual happened?" They all seemed perplexed. "Never mind, " he told them. Hands helped him to his feet and he happily surveyed all the sets, equipment, cameras and crew.

"Are you sure you're okay?" Bryan asked with concern.

"After all the stunts I've done? What's a little bonk on the head? Let's get on."

They went back to the shoot and Jimmy finally got through his lines without giggling. Since no seemed to think he'd been gone, Hugh, the memories of his experience already rapidly fading, found himself questioning whether he'd really been anywhere else. After all, he was living and breathing X-men sixteen hours a day. It could have been just a dream. Still, he remembered enough to be delighted to have his own life back and ended the day in a far better mood then he began it. When he got home, much to Deb's surprise, he kissed her like he hadn't seen her for a week, certain no matter how lovely Logan's lady-friend might've been she couldn't hold a candle to his true love. Then he eagerly picked up Oscar, still grumpy with his cold and kissed him, glad to be home where he belonged, where life was safe and relatively simple.

Even so, in the days to follow, at odd moments, the sensation of Alaska's biting cold came back to him or the feel of Logan's claws bursting through his skin or that porcelain face with its strange violet eyes and e had to ask himself whether he was sure it was just a dream -- or had it really been something more?

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Heaven Forbid

With all the calamities happening all over the world lately, I can't help but think of 2012. The movie was fiction but it was based on facts, well at least the Mayan Long Count Calendar.



Looking at the pictures and videos from Haiti and Chile is like watching the disaster movie all over again. It's so scary to think that a tragedy like that, the end of the world, will happen and no one will be spared. No, I don't think that even a submarine, like the one in the movie, is enough to save those on-board.

Whether we like it or not, the year 2012 will arrive. Whether that will be our last year on Earth remains to be seen. The only thing we can do now is pray.

Cause of Death

Day 14 of the 30 Day Challenge - A Non-Fictional Book

The best non-fiction book I've read is Cause of Death by Dr. Cyril Wecht. It's a book I've read and re-read many times over.

William Beatty 0f Booklist says it all in his editorial review:

In this fascinating book, a forensic pathologist relates his experiences with a dozen murders or supposed murders. As he does, he makes clear the education, experience, and character needed to make a good medical examiner as well as what such an individual should do. Although his case studies are the kind that encourage lurid treatment, Wecht deals primarily with hard evidence and his own substantial involvement when sloppy work by police and coroners made solutions either much harder or impossible. Those whose deaths Wecht reports on range from John F. Kennedy (whose case consumes one-fifth of the text) through Elvis Presley to Delbert Ward, who was made famous by the award-winning documentary film, Brother's Keeper. Who was the second shooter in Dallas (Wecht does not buy the conspiracy theory)? Who was the second shooter with Sirhan? What actually happened at Chappaquiddick? Such are the questions Wecht sought to answer. Especially interesting are the cases of Dr. Charles Friedgood ("one of [Wecht's] most bizarre cases"), of Capt. Jeffrey MacDonald, M.D. (the most troubling for Wecht), and of others whose demises are less renowned but as provocative.

This book is again inside my bag as I'm starting to read it yet again.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Notre-Dame de Paris

Day 13 of the 30 Day Challenge - A Fictional Book

It's just a coincidence that 2 of my most fave books were written by Victor Hugo: Les Miserables and Notre-Dame de Paris.



Notre-Dame de Paris is more popularly known as The Hunchback of Notre Dame, and is one of the saddest love stories I've known. I've always looked at myself as someone like the Beast (in Beauty and the Beast), and as Quasimodo.

The animated feature released in 1996 was based on the novel but the story was changed by Disney for the young audience, as the original ending of the novel was very tragic.


Why was I not made of stone -- like thee?
- Quasimodo