I had my last shift last night, logged out for the last time this morning. The whole shift I was trying to make everyone laugh so no one (including me) would feel any sadness during my last shift with the team, but as the hours turned to minutes, the mood turned into something else. The usually noisy team suddenly became silent as they silently counted down my stay with the team and with the company.
At 4:02 AM, I logged out from my Avaya and my PC, kissed my station, and gave my letter to my team mates. They all wished me well, and told me they'll miss me. I know they will. I know I will. I hope I made the right decision. Only time will tell.
Before going out of the production floor, they made me promise to put my mugs (I bring 2 every shift) and my headset in my locker and come back to the floor to say goodbye to everyone. I said yes. I hurried out to my locker and was about to go back in when I met Chazzy, one of my closest team mates who is like a little sister to me. She hugged me tight and told me she'll miss me and that she doesn't have a Daddy anymore. I was The Daddy to a lot of my colleagues and friends in the office. I hugged her tight and told her that I'll always be there for her. Tears started to fall from my eyes. I just realized I already miss everyone. I wanted to go back to the floor, but I didn't. I couldn't. If I did, I would be more emotional about it.
I went straight to the elevator, and went straight out of the office. I went home and cried myself to sleep.
I miss my team. I miss my team mates.
*sigh*
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