I have not been really active with theatre the past couple of years (before the lockdowns) as much as I would've wanted. I was offered a role in Panagtipon 2020 (Panagtipon 2019 was one of my most enjoyable theatre experience) and I loved it, but unlike the previous years, the rehearsals were to be twice/thrice a week for 2 weeks or so, and then everyday for a month. Because of my responsibilities at home and work, I am not able to do those rehearsal days so I had to quit.
Fast forward to last year, I was ecstatic when I was asked if I would like to join the callbacks for a supporting character in Annie. I prepared for the callbacks, and luckily got it.
Then the lockdowns happened.
The production shifted online for our weekend workshops.
The first few Sundays, we had the vocal workshops. It was challenging, but I managed to survive it.
The next Sundays were extremely difficult. Movement and acting workshops.
For those workshops, we needed to have space to move and such.
We don't have space at home. I tried going to public places just to have space, but still it didn't work out. I was very frustrated with this pandemic. We would've done the rehearsals at GMI, and space and internet connection wouldn't be a problem. This is just not working for me.
I wanted to quit, but I couldn't because I signed a contract. I know they would understand, but I really tried my best to make it work.
Then just recently, I sent a message to the production team that I wouldn't be able to attend online workshops anymore since I really am struggling with space. The Stage Manager said he'll forward my message. I hope they'll understand. I am thankful to have been included in the production, and more thankful that I was not included in the callbacks for major roles. I don't think I am capable anymore to memorize long lines, and rehearse longer hours. If they'll drop me, I'll be fine with it. I miss theatre. I love theatre. With everything that's going on right now, I can give up theatre for my family and for work.
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