Sunday, November 29, 2009

Let Down Again

We had our supposedly-first meeting and casting auditions yesterday, and as I predicted and feared, only a few came. Most of those who were absent informed me way after, while a few didn't bother to respond to all the messages I sent them.

*sigh*


It's instances like these that discourage me from continuing what I've started. Yes, I was expecting people not to come based on experience, and yes, I'm a little bit disappointed. While I've always done everything possible not to let people down, sad to say, a lot of people have let me down all my life. I'm used to disappointments and failures, and honestly right now, I've lost all the thrill and excitement to schedule another meeting. I've spent weeks of sleepless nights preparing everything, and if the first meeting is an indication, all the efforts exerted is for nothing.

I can understand my sis' absence as she really had/has a lot to do, with work, helping Scene One with their production, and a lot other responsibilities. What disappointed me are the other people who were so eager to join when they heard about the plan that most of them even volunteered themselves, then until now I still have to see even their shadows.

For the longest time, I thought that the greatest challenge of my musical career would be to pull this production off. I was wrong. The greatest challenge is to get the people to attend meetings and most especially rehearsals later on.

*sigh*

And yeah, from now on, I will not believe people telling me they're interested to join and all that sh*t. I will only believe them if they are already there during rehearsals, rehearsing with the rest of us.

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