Soul Siblings Part 1

Losing family helps us to find our family. Not necessarily the family that is our blood, but the family that may become our blood.. - Finding Forrester (2000)

God took away my elder sister and brother before I was born so from the moment I was conceived, I was already destined to be alone.

In fairness to my parents, they gave me the care and attention that I needed growing up, but I still felt alone and incomplete. I had no one to talk with and play with. I was on my own. Maybe that was also the reason why I was, and still am so shy. I was sheltered, over-protected. I was loved and I had friends, but I still felt empty. I envied my friends who had siblings who played with them, fought with them and just stayed with them. I wanted my own siblings but it was impossible. My eldest sister, Happy, died while inside my mom's womb. Two years after, my elder brother, Carlo, reached 10 months inside the womb and also died. Two years after my brother's accident, my mom was pregnant with me but she also had Placenta praevia so she had to do a complete bed rest for 9 months or she'll lose me too.

It was impossible but I prayed for God to give me a brother or a sister. Although I never blamed Him for what happened, there were times when I did start to question Him. Why did He take them away? Why did He leave me all alone?

I felt my prayers were answered when I met Kazie and Dan. I felt a connection with them right away, and not long after, they became my soul siblings for we are siblings connected not by blood, but by our souls.

I was not and still am not the best Kuya, but God knows I really tried. I am still trying.

We all got busy with different things and there were a lot of really long instances where we lost touch with each other, but in my heart, I knew that when needed, I will be there for and with them right away.

Fast forward to the present, we're again reunited and trying to catch up on those lost years. I know I have a lot of catching up and making up to do, and I will definitely do it if given the chance.